Reflections.

I woke up this morning and found myself wishing that the next few months would pass quickly so we could meet this little one. Some days I think I'm ready, and other's I know I'm not... but something about seeing her on that ultrasound has made me really want to meet her and see her tiny little face again. We're at a crossroads with so many things in life right now. We're trying something new with our business, which is scary but exciting. We're thinking of moving, which is terrifying and thrilling all in one. So many new things in the next couple of years... and yet I'm ready to settle into a groove and just enjoy our little family too. All things considered we're so young to have 2 kids. By the time I'm 26 I'll already have two babies and have been married for 5 years. That's so crazy to me. Definately not how I envisioned my life growing up, but now I couldn't imagine my life any different. So looking foward I know that everything I'm envisioning for the next 5 years will probably be completely different from what will actually happen. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. But it's life. So I'll take it.

I woke up with a smile on my face this morning... knowing that in just a few months I'll be getting very little sleep - but will still wake up smiling at my angel lying in her cradle next to me. Lizzy came in and climbed in bed with us this morning... I can just picture mornings like this with one baby girl cuddled next to me, looking over the cradle at our new baby girl saying "Hi baby!" It's so hard to imagine loving another baby as much as I do Lizzy... but over the last few days my heart has been stretching and adjusting and this new little one has firmly planted herself deep within my heart. I find myself thinking of who she'll look like, if she'll be like Lizzy or the complete opposite. If she'll love her sister as much as I always loved mine. It's so neat letting all the possibilities roam around in my head. Knowing she's already a big part of our family.

Anyway... I'm staring out the window looking at the beautiful day outside... and I know I should go get Liz and enjoy these last few months of just her and I time. The problem is I already feel like it's not just her and I anymore... somehow knowing what's baking in there has changed my outlook. We're now a family of 4. Even if we haven't yet met this tiny one. She's captured our hearts and is always on our minds. Not that that will stop us from enjoying Liz to the fullest the next few months before she has to share our attention... but it was both a little sad and exciting knowing how much this new baby is already a part of our home.