20 Weeks Today!

Wow. It's official guys... we're half way there!!!! Scary. And exciting. Mostly scary though. LOL A couple pregnancy updates... the worst being I'm having horrible horrible, gut wrenching, wake up with tears streaming down my face nightmares... every. single. night. Sometimes multiple times a night. :( From most of my mommytobe friends I've been chatting with that are about the same in weeks, it's started for them also, so I don't think it's anything abnormal, so much as terribly scary. I hate falling asleep right now, even naps bring on dreams of Lizzy being kidnapped, Jay being shot, Maddy having issues... it's awful. I think it also has alot to do with the stress I've been under so I'm really going to try and take it easy this week. Jay's going to make a point of leaving business stress at the door, and I'm going to try to keep Lizzy's day to day learnings (aka pushing mommy's buttons) at the door and really try to see the bright side this week. I'll hopefully have my car back by Wednesday or Thursday, and Jay's mom is lending me her car so I can get to Tiff's in the morning to watch the kiddo's for her... that'll be an extra $30 which always helps as well.

Okay, enough of the Debby Downer. On an upside, Madeline has been kicking up a storm lately... it's funny because every time she does - I respond outloud with "Well, Hi baby!" And now Lizzy will see me stop suddenly and put my hand on my tummy, and she'll say "Hi baby!" even before I do. LOL It's so cute. She thinks my dad is having a baby. Hahaha. Daddy told me the other night, "I guess I need to work on my diet a little more as my grandaughter is convinced I'm going to have a baby soon." Too cute. After my big vent thread the other day, things have started looking up again on all fronts. The stress is still there, but I've got a good handle on it. I don't feel so frustrated with life, Liz or Jay - let alone bills, business or our cars. I've learned a valuable lesson through all of this... Life happens. And when life happens - be it good or bad, having friends who are there to offer hugs or a kind word make all the differance in the world... what once felt unbearable, is now tolerable. And I love y'all dearly for that. So anyways... life isn't so bad, it's just... life.

On the upside... the Bizzy Lizzy Boutique is doing quite well, though I'm thinking of renaming it. I took on a line of boy's pant and shortall's and it sounds a little too girly for boy stuff. So Jay and I are working on another name... I sort of just want something fun, unrelated to clothes etc. I had an idea this morning but the more I said it outloud I didn't like it... so anyways, once we rename it we can get our new website up. The current one is a freebie and has a funky address. But it works. I picked up some fabric today for a couple new dresses for Liz, and I've started making some new types of bows - so that's fun too. I've long wanted to make these but haven't taken the time to learn how - well now I have so tomorrow I'm going to put together some fall and christmas one's to see how it turns out... I'll post pics when I'm done.

So far I have regular bows, head bands, these new confetti bows, A-line dresses for babies and toddlers, Smock overcoats for toddler girls, pantall's for boys and baby blankets in various sizes. I can't wait to get our good website up and going... it'll feel more real then. I really need to get on a new name... once I get that done I can get my cards, clothing tags and website finished and then we'll be ready to go. Right now it's just word of mouth and local mom friends who buy my bows. I'm anxious to start selling the clothing as well as the blanket's and new bows.

I put together 4 new set's of christmas bows today and 3 new Halloween/Fall style sets. It took me about an hour to do all 7 sets. Not bad for time in front of the TV. ;)

So anyway, that's what's new. I'm half way there... somewhat scared of life with 2 kids. But also excited to see how it all works out. It hit me today at lunch that this time next year, I'll have one in a high chair and one running around the booth... lunch without Jay will cease to happen. LOL And even then, I have a feeling I'm going to be pretty worn out here soon. But, on the other hand... meeting Madeline and watching our family grow will be well worth the tiredness of learning how to do it all. I'm glad Jay likes to help out with Liz. If it wasn't for him - I'd be one foot in the grave right now - Maddy doesn't let me sleep well except on my left side, which I have a hard time staying on... all. night. long.

Everyone keep their fingers crossed that the nightmares subside a bit this week... hopefully if I take it a bit easier and try to only think of the positives in our life the dreams will ease up. Here's hoping! I'm off to bed... it's way past my bedtime, but putting off the inevitable just means I'm going to need a nap ever moreso tomorrow. LOL