Bad morning.

So I woke up this morning at 6:30 thinking I heard Elizabeth's door open, I went to stand up to go check and got really weak and dizzy so I layed back down - 20 minutes later I heard it again, so I made myself get up and go check on her. Sure enough she was waiting outside my door - we don't get up that early, so I escorted her back to bed, tucked her in and then went and layed back down. I was feeling really weak and jittery but I figured it was just low blood sugar so I let myself fall back asleep until 8:30.

Well when I woke up at 8:30 I knew something was wrong... both of my arms felt like dead weights and I thought I was going to be sick. Jay got me some OJ and I waited for about 20 minutes hoping it'd pass, but instead it got worse. I realized at this point that I hadn't felt the baby move since last night... So I called the OB on call at the hospital, he told me to eat something sugary to try and wake Madeline up, wait 20 minutes after eating - if I still hadn't felt anything he wanted me to come in just to check on her though he reassured me it was just a check and she was probably resting. I ate some Lucky Charms... no movement. Still felt sick, and very very weak. Called my dad to come get Lizzy and we headed down to the hospital. When we got there I was white as a ghost and feeling like I was going to pass out - they checked me in and hooked me up to a monitor to hear the babies heart rate... they couldn't find it. They switched machines and tried again and they finally got a faint heart beat, I was sobbing at this point, scared out of my mind that something was wrong with her - they took some blood to check my blood sugar and iron levels... all the while listening to her heart. She wasn't moving still... though her heart rate was regular, it was faint.

Anyway... Madeline has a virus they think, they asked if I'd been around anyone sick lately, and I don't think I had... they never did get her to move, but they weren't worried as they watched her on the ultrasound and said she's breathing regularly with her lungs (they like to see 30 seconds of lung movement for every 30 minutes - she did about 5 breaths but they said that's probably b/c she's not feeling well) and her heart beat is nomal, they tried and tried to wake her up and get her to use her reflexes but she never did - after almost 30 minutes on the ultrasound and over an hour and a half on the monitor they told me to go home, take it easy, drink tons of OJ - my iron was low so they put me on a perscription for that, and said count those movements.

Oh yeah, and I had a few contractions while i was there - they were mild but showed up on the monitor, and I'm a finger tip dialated... but again they weren't too worried.

Since we left she's wiggled around a bit, nothing major - but she is moving... I'm supposed to rest a lot the next few days. They said if I fight it hard with OJ and pick up my appetite (something that's dwindled over the last week or so) I'm hungry - but never eat much right now... they want me to eat 6 small meals a day and snack regularly to keep my blood sugar up and try and drink 3-4 glasses of OJ a day - hopefully I can kick this virus and neither her or I get any worse... I go back in on Thursday for my regular visit, if her movment doesn't pick up by tomorrow, I'm supposed to go back in for more tests.

UGHHHHHHH. All I want is a healthy little girl... i hate that she's sick and I can't hold her or take care of her other than drinking OJ til I pee orange. But I'm glad her heart and lungs are doing well... fluid levels were okay so that's good too. All in all they told me to pack my bags now as it's all in the air as to when she might arrive - could be as soon as tomorrow if she slows down again - or I might go another 6 weeks... fun times.