Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Maddy's 1 Month Wellcheck.

Well, my little peanut had her one month well check visit today... and she's growing!!! Not that I doubted that... but she's grown an inch now placing her in the 25% for height, 25% for head, but 50% for weight! She's up to 9 lbs 2 oz already... I can't believe she's already 9 lbs! So crazy. My growing lady bug is getting all kinds of cute little rolls all over her arms and legs, and she's even got a bit of a double chin now! LOL I need to take some pictures of her tomorrow.

I'm headed to a BF class tomorrow, should be interesting, they weigh the baby, then we nurse, then they weigh them again to see how much they ate during that feeding. I'm curious to see how much Maddy's gained... BUT I still suppliment during the day after each feeding and I admit I'll be embarassed to pull out a bottle at a BF class. LOL So I hope Maddy can hold off until we leave. I'll let her nurse as long as she wants but I won't pull out that bottle until we get home. LOL

Anyway, just wanted to update! Little Miss is doing well! I'll post more pictures soon! :)

Mail & More

Well to answer the Disney question y'all have been asking... we're going to Disney over Mother's Day this year, with my MIL. Then the day before we leave my family is coming in for a week, so we'll be spending some time with them as well... it's going to be slammed pack with family, fun and craziness! YAY! I can't wait to take Maddy into the parks - and my MIL hasn't been in years! We'll probaby be at the hotel alot, since Madeline is so little still. But I'm looking forward to getting to spend some good time with Lizzy and Jay. I swear we all kind of high five each other hello and goodbye these days. Jay is staying VERY busy - which is great, but also means we can't plan an extended trip because he can't be gone too long since we're already backed up with work. So I'm really looking forward to seeing my hubby for a few days with no work interuptions (though I'm sure he'll be on the phone a lot booking appointments... but I'll take what I can get. LOL)



SO! I've been stocking up on fun outfits for the girls (I think I mentioned that yesterday, but I can't remember.) Anyway, I went to BRU this morning and found some great deals! I had a couple gift cards that I was planning on saving for diapers - but seeing as how I still have several hundred diapers waiting in the closet, I decided to splurge a little and do some shopping for the girls. Now, Madeline really truly doesn't *need* any new clothes - but that doesn't mean she didn't get any. ;) I got the girls two matching outfits from the Disney Pooh line at BRU. One of them is bright orange and yellow, Maddy's is a one piece sunsuit and Lizzy's has a shirt that matches Maddy's and then jean capri's with Pooh on the bottom cuff. SO CUTE! The other outfit matches exactly, I got them both lavender tank tops with white shorts - the tank has a big sparkly Pooh on it. Then I picked up a couple more outfits for Liz - they had a ton of them on sale for $7.99 - Love that deal! Lizzy needed new summer clothes as she really only had a couple of dresses so far.



Okay, onto the Mail part of the update! I've received 4 really fantastically fun gifts in the mail the last few days (weeks)!!! 6 if you count the two cards filled with giftcards and money from my Uncle Jay and Grandpa Fagan! But the gifts came from Chrissy, Nibbs, Aunt Jill and Aunt Sharon. (The Aunts being *my* aunts, the girls great aunts.) Chrissy got Madeline this wonderful Mustela gift set full of bath goodies for Maddy. Mustela is my *favorite* baby splurge. It all smells SO good and works SO very well! I love it! And she put in an adorable little lamb as well. Nibbs sent us a box filled with fun goodies as well, an adorable bunny hat and bunny slippers to match, some duckie bibs (which I found out match the one's she got Anya! So fun!) and Maddy's very first bunny rabit! (It even says that right on the bunny.) ;) And my favorite part of the gift, a note from Nibbs herself. :) Love you Nibbs! Aunt Sharon sent a box full of baby clothes she's been collecting, including some really cute sunsuits and a little red sailor outfit which I can't wait to put Maddy in! And a check for Madeline as well! :) Aunt Jill sent a huge box of goodies for both the girls, including a giant Minnie Mouse for Liz which *must* sit on her pillow every night right beside her head. Aunt Jill, Ally and Abbie put in a really cute Gymboree outfit with strawberries that I think I'll get Madeline's 3 month pictures taken in - it's SO cute, some carter's sunsuits, a ton of coupons and some socks for Liz. All in all our mail lady has been visiting our door a lot and Lizzy and I have had SO much fun going through all the wonderful things y'all have sent us! So again, a BIG THANK YOU! I love you all so much and your gifts were so thoughtful and sweet!



One little update about our lives as well... I've been having a hard time balancing my time between Elizabeth and Madeline. Lizzy needs sooooo much attention right now, more for her to mentally grasp the whole sharing mommy thing than anything. While Madeline actually *needs* me, but doesn't complain when I leave her in her seat to play with Liz. It's been a struggle for me as Lizzy has been acting out a lot in hopes of gaining any attention at all from me, be it negative or positive. She doesn't care - and now it's carrying over into her sleep habits as well... the last couple nights in a row she's woken up in the middle of the night coming into our room, slamming the door, waking up Maddy, Jay and I with yells of "I pee'd!" or "I can't find B!" (her blankie) it's been very frustrating and is causing her to behave even worse in the mornings because she's so tired all the time. She wakes up telling me she's tired and sleepy and wants to take a nap - but she won't go back to sleep. I spend SO much time with her, but it just never seems to be enough. I hate this. Any attention I give Madeline when Elizabeth is around turns into Lizzy doing something very naughty to get my attention... eg: emptying an entire bottle of lotion all over herself and then begging for a bath, making huge messes and then pretending to be hurt so I'll put Madeline down and go comfort Liz instead... and on and on. It's a constant battle. Liz will look at me while I'm feeding Madeline and say "Stop feeding her mommy. Put her down. Talk to me." It's heart breaking to hear and I feel like I'm doing something wrong. There's got to be a better way of communicating to Elizabeth that while mommy loves her SO very much, I *have* to feed, change, rock, etc. Madeline too! I fall in bed exhausted at night and most days just work my way through it. Elizabeth doesn't act out towards Maddy though. She always directs things at me. I'll pick up Madeline and Lizzy will rush over and yell "MY MADDY!" Another thing is that she's been having trouble when I drop her off at school. Remember those days at the begining of the school year when I would tear up because she would run off to play with her friends without so much as a backwards glance or goodbye mommy? Well those days are long gone... now I have to pry her off my leg every morning that I drop her off with major tears when I leave. They say she calms down within a minute or two and then is fine - but I hate seeing her so upset like that. Another thing is that when she get's up in the middle of the night, usually Jay's the one to put her back to sleep - we made a deal that I'd get up as much as needed with Madeline at night but that if Liz get's up, he'd get up with her so that I wasn't up ALL night long. Well Lizzy will lay in bed and cry for me until I get up and go tuck her back in bed. It's frustrating Jay, wearing me out and making for a generally miserable family.



Now... this isn't all the time, not at all. Just now and then. Most days we pull through just fine, and the time I spend with Lizzy seems to be adequate in that her acting out is mainly just when I'm feeding or changing the baby. But it's still the constant battle of "when will she go off next?" and "am I doing a good enough job?" or "what's wrong with my parenting skills that my toddler is doubting my love for her?" Those are the things I think about constantly...

Monday, March 24, 2008

3 1/2 weeks already?!

Dear Lord this is passing so quick! AHHH! My baby girl is getting so wonderfully big... and yet she's still such a peanut! She still has the baby curl... that sweet back arching, knee pulling, curling themselves into a ball every time you pick them up. I adore it.

We're pretty much functioning just fine as a family of four - though it still seems weird at times... thinking that just a couple weeks ago I was biting my nails in aticipation for her arrival - and now nearly a month later it feels like she's always been here!

Our Easter was crazy, I had to be up at 5 to be at church by 7 - and didn't leave until almost 1:30 - I was sooooo tired. Three services and 30 babies later with just a handful of volunteers and I was yawning my head off, tummy grumbling and I desperately needed a nap. lol BUT After church we went over to Linda's and she spoiled me (us). We had a delicious ham dinner with these amazing cherry cheesecake chocolate chip cookie dessert thingies. I followed it up with nursing maddy and then passed out for an hour on her sofa. Bliss. ;) Woke up, cuddled with Maddy for a couple hours and we all watched Hook on TV. It turned out to be a very relaxing afternoon... which I was very thankful for.

Elizabeth scored 3 easter baskets this year! Woot! Nanny filled hers with summer socks, flower goggles, color wonder coloring books, bunny play dough, and some other goodies. Grammy got Liz two outfits, a color wonder coloring book and a chalk board table. Mommy and Daddy (and the Easter Bunny) got Lizzy some new froggy rain boots, snow white sunglasses, a float for the pool, princess bubble bath and some princess sippy cups. :) All in all I'd say she hit the jackpot this weekend. LOL Maddy got a new bunny, some clothes and a piece of chocolate from Uncle Bryan which mommy sneaked. :P

OH! And I found some new outfits for the girls for our Disney Trip - SO CUTE! They're Minnie Mouse and just precious. I can't wait to see them in their new clothes on our trip! Yes, I'm that goofy mom who thinks it's fun to buy new tennis shoes and clothes for my kids on vacation. LOL So I'm stocking up Maddy and Lizzy. I can't wait!!! 43 days until we leave. :D

Hmmm... other news? Well, I started training for the WDW half marathon next January! I'm not sure that I'll actually make it TO the marathon - but some other girls in my small group and I decided we'd give it a good try! Right now we're starting off at just 30 minutes on monday, 45 on wed and thursday and an hour on Saturday - and then working our way up over the next 10 weeks. Our goal is by week 10 to be able to run 180 minutes at aprox a 10-12 minute mile. Which translates to aprox 15+ miles. Obviously we're in no rush- we just want to be able to finish.. 13 miles baby. :D I can't wait! I've never been much of a runner but I love the idea of getting my butt into shape with my girlfriends and having Disney in January to look forward too! :D It'll be a great time I'm sure. :)

So anyways, life with two girls is busy, (which can be seen by me severe decline in posting updates.. sorry!) but wonderful. Lizzy is talking up a storm now, very rarely does she have trouble communicating something. For the most part she tells us what she wants, when she wants it and to hurry up if we're going too slow for her taste. Ha. My 2 y/o is a budding hormonal preteen most days, full of drama and suprises. But so funny to watch.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Nursing...

Well, I made up my mind to completely change my diet. (While still dieting) LOL So far it seems to be helping... though it's extremely bland. The last two days have gone better as far as the gas. Yesterday I had one of my 100 calorie snack pack's for breakfast with a bottle of water... crackers and water... easy enough on the belly.. then I had a bowl of oatmeal with skim milk and raisens for lunch... again... bland but perfect for her belly. Then for dinner I had a turkey sub and apples. Today has been similar, except I had a soup in hand and toasted cheese sandwhich for lunch to give me some dairy. SO... now that I've updated my boring diet. lol The nursing has been much smoother... and I've commited to nursing her for every feeding right now to get my milk supply up. Which has made me one sore mama... but I have a content baby who hasn't had any bad gas in 2 days now! That makes it all worth it. :) AND, if I can keep to this diet I should start shedding the pounds in no time. BIG YAY!



So that's where we're at for now... Madeline slept last night from 9pm to 2 am - nursed, and took 2 oz of formula (I wanted her FULL so she'd sleep for another long stretch.) Then from 2:30 - 6:00 am, then she slept till 10 this morning when I woke her up to give her a bath... so it was easy to nurse that middle of the night feeding as I'd gone to bed the same time as her and had a nice 5 hour stretch... LOVE THAT!


Okay, on to the fun stuff... I had some pics taken at Penney's last week of the girls... I don't like them - compared to the Portrait Innovations one's I had done of Liz - these suck, but still.. here's a few shots of my kiddo's! :)










Sunday, March 16, 2008

Sleepy...

Just thought I'd update and say WOW I am tired. I knew it would hit me eventually... and boy has it ever. Madeline is sleeping well, but I'm still pooped all the time right now. It's crazy... I go to bed early but I have a hard time getting back to sleep after Maddy wakes up to eat, so I just toss and turn a lot - and Liz get's up at 7:45 on the dot every morning right now... so there's no catching up on sleep in the morning... and Lizzy's having a hard time napping right now - I am doing everything I can think of to get her to nap but she just plays and comes out of her room about 30 million times... it's so tiring.



It's not a depressing kind of tired though... just a weary one. I'm in good spirits, my girls are doing well as far as health and appetite go so that makes me feel like I'm doing something right. Madeline is a PIGGY. Good gracious she eats eats eats... she's on a schedule but man is she a hog when it comes time for a meal, snorting and grunting the whole time she's eating. Seriously. She sounds like a little piglet. LOL It's hilarious.



Nursing is proving to be more complicated than I originally thought... while she's a great nurser, has no latch problems at all and would easily nurse full time if I wanted to - EVERYTHING I eat gives her gas! It's SO annoying! She has no gas with the formula, she doesn't even burp after drinking a 3 oz bottle! But man every single time I nurse my child get's an upset stomach. It's so frustrating. I feel so bad for her - I'm trying to just keep at it but it seems like I could eat nothing but bread and water (which I've tried) and she'd still get a tummy ache about an hour after she nurses.



*sigh* SO I don't know how much longer we'll be doing this... It's just too stressful knowing that I'm going to have a grumpy baby on my hands - and what's worse? She doesn't even cry when her tummy's upset... she just sort of curls up in a ball and whimpers... it's heartbreaking to watch and listen to. I was really excited b/c it's been so much easier this time than it was with Lizzy - but while Liz had latch issues, Maddy has gassy issues... definately not any better in the long run. I'm sad about that but i want to do what's best for her... I'm torn, is it best to keep going? Knowing she'll keep having tummy aches? Or best to just give her formula, knowing that I *could* be breastfeeding... I don't know... I'm going to a bf class on wednesday. Maybe they can give me some tips.



And I officially start my diet tomorrow! YAY! I'm SO ready to be rid of this baby weight! I've got at least 30 lbs to lose and it's driving me mad... nothing fits me right now but I refuse to buy new clothes. I'll fit into my old one's eventually... for now I have one pair of jeans and a couple pair of capri's that were my "fat" clothes before I lost weight last fall - so I'm wearing those in rotation right now. LOL



Anyway. I taking over the nursery room at church. The previous nursery leader moved to Atlanta so I'm going to fill her position. It definately does not help with my fatigue - but I love giving back and helping out... I adore our church so it's great to feel apart of things. It makes for a long Sunday though - I have to be there at 8 and don't leave until 1'ish... by the time we had lunch and got home both my girls were exhausted but neither one could nap as they were both overtired so they just grumped on me all afternoon. Jay and I are going to have to figure out a system to make this work for the whole family.



So... all in all, I'm joining the gym this week and hitting my diet hard and heavy (and safely as I'm still nursing) but all the same, I should start looking like the old me soon! :D Sleepy... but still me. ;)

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

New News?

Well I know I've been MIA lately - so sorry, it's been hard getting time to spend online... the transition from 1 to 2 kids has been really fun, but definetly has its challenges. My girls are so amazing... Lizzy just loves Maddy to pieces and Madeline is a dream child. She's an incredibly mellow baby and has the best temperment. She sleeps like a dream and is a joy to be around - yet she never complains if I need to put her down to spend time with Lizzy.


I had Lizzy's pictures taken today - they turned out SO cute! Here's a couple of my favorites...






Tomorrow I'm having some pics of Maddy taken.... I actually had both girls taken on Monday but I didn't like how they turned out - I paid $60 at JC Penny's and compared to these of Lizzy - they were crappy. So I want a good one of Madeline. Anyway - so that's that. :)
More pics to come soon. Madeline is gaining weight like crazy... she was 8 lbs 3 oz on Friday and I'm sure she's pushing 8 1/2 lbs by now... she's getting some chunky little thighs on her. lol so darling.
Aaaaaand I'm getting Disney fever... bad! We want to plan a short trip in May. Lizzy overheard Jay and I talking the other night and now every night before bed she starts asking if we can see Mickey tomorrow. Bless her heart... I can't wait to take her back. I just keep telling her soon... lol 8 weeks til' May! ;)
I'll try to update more I promise!

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Mail Suprises!

Ooooh how I love mail suprises! Our post gal delivered a package today from a little blue bird (or shall I say bunny! :D) and it was stuffed with goodies for Madeline!!! Thank you Krystyna! I'll have to post pics later of all the fun things, but the crib toy is already a big hit with Maddy... she stares at it with this half smile while it's singing to her.. soooo sweet! The package also had the cutest pair of bunny pants - very perfect for upcoming Easter! And an adorable 9 month outfit... (thanks for thinking ahead!) not to mention a teether and a dozen or so awesome coupons. Yay! The gift that keeps on giving! LOL So fun... thanks girly. :)

So Madeline is doing very well. She is seriously the most mellow baby I've ever met... I know I've already said that - but I am in awe every day at how good she is! She doesn't complain about anything! The only time she ever fusses is when she get's hungry... aside from that she is one very mellow little lady. And even her fussing is nothing loud or long... she just let's me know it's time to eat mom and that's it! She is an absolute cuddle bug, ooooh how she likes to snuggle. She must be swaddled in order to take long naps - and she just stays all bundled up in her blankets for around 3 hours between feedings... during the day she'll stay awake after eating for 20 minutes to an hour, and at night we've figured out a good routine, she'll wake up hungry, I'll nurse on one side then she'll start falling asleep after 15 minutes or so - so I'll change her diaper, bundle her back up and then she's awake again to finish nursing, then she just passes out for another 3 hours. It's SO nice having an easy going baby... I'm counting my blessings every day.

She's growing! We had her bilirubin tested yesterday and she did fantastic... no high levels (though their methods of testing her broke my heart... that's another post for another day) and she's already gained back her birth weight plus an ounce! Go girl! My peanut weighed in at 7 lbs 14 oz yesterday and is starting to get a cute little double chin. LOL Enough that we've already started with the neck gunk. She wiggles during her baths but doesn't cry at all.. she's got so much hair I have to wash it every other day or it get's super oily from everyone's hands petting her all the time. She can't fit into any of her newborn clothes yet - but she can wear newborn sleepers, so that's what she's been wearing this last week... pj's every day. LOL Fortunately we have some adorable sleepers that could really pass for outfits so it doesn't look too odd.

I can't believe she's already been here almost a week! Tonight at 12:31 my angel will be a whole week old... *sob* wow how this week has flown by. I need to slow down and spend some more time at home just enjoying her newborn phase - I know it'll be gone before I'm ready... I've been running around like a mad woman these last few days getting back into the swing of things, but I'm realizing that i need more rest during the day... Madeline is so good she'll nap anytime anywhere but mommy needs to catch up on her rest too - I keep thinking I'm back to normal, while I know that my body is still healing and adjusting from a pretty major event just 7 days ago. I guess it just feels so good not to be pregnant anymore that I'm going a bit overboard with the rushing around and getting out and about. Anyway, slap on my wrist - I'll work on it.

More pics to be updated soon! Elizabeth is still loving her new sister - she helps me with everything and loves to check on her when she's grunting or fussing... she'll run in and say "What wrong with her mommy? She poop?" I think in Lizzy's world that's justification for a good cry or at the very least a good bit of grunting. LOL

Madeline Jane, you are a joy to be around girly. Mommy is loving every single moment I have with you. :)

Monday, March 3, 2008

Ready to see Maddy?

Okay everyone, here's some pics of Madeline Jane! :) I'm getting a new photo page for the family soon - so I'll post a link once I get everything uploaded... but for now, here's the latest addition to our family!

Lizzy loves her sister!
Mommy with her 2 girls...

Madeline just chillin in her swing.


Back of the head shot... love all that hair!



Mommy and Maddy (Very swollen from the IV)




Sweet baby toes...



Talkin to my angel...

Big eyes!
My cuddle bug