Sunday, January 13, 2008

Bad morning.

So I woke up this morning at 6:30 thinking I heard Elizabeth's door open, I went to stand up to go check and got really weak and dizzy so I layed back down - 20 minutes later I heard it again, so I made myself get up and go check on her. Sure enough she was waiting outside my door - we don't get up that early, so I escorted her back to bed, tucked her in and then went and layed back down. I was feeling really weak and jittery but I figured it was just low blood sugar so I let myself fall back asleep until 8:30.

Well when I woke up at 8:30 I knew something was wrong... both of my arms felt like dead weights and I thought I was going to be sick. Jay got me some OJ and I waited for about 20 minutes hoping it'd pass, but instead it got worse. I realized at this point that I hadn't felt the baby move since last night... So I called the OB on call at the hospital, he told me to eat something sugary to try and wake Madeline up, wait 20 minutes after eating - if I still hadn't felt anything he wanted me to come in just to check on her though he reassured me it was just a check and she was probably resting. I ate some Lucky Charms... no movement. Still felt sick, and very very weak. Called my dad to come get Lizzy and we headed down to the hospital. When we got there I was white as a ghost and feeling like I was going to pass out - they checked me in and hooked me up to a monitor to hear the babies heart rate... they couldn't find it. They switched machines and tried again and they finally got a faint heart beat, I was sobbing at this point, scared out of my mind that something was wrong with her - they took some blood to check my blood sugar and iron levels... all the while listening to her heart. She wasn't moving still... though her heart rate was regular, it was faint.

Anyway... Madeline has a virus they think, they asked if I'd been around anyone sick lately, and I don't think I had... they never did get her to move, but they weren't worried as they watched her on the ultrasound and said she's breathing regularly with her lungs (they like to see 30 seconds of lung movement for every 30 minutes - she did about 5 breaths but they said that's probably b/c she's not feeling well) and her heart beat is nomal, they tried and tried to wake her up and get her to use her reflexes but she never did - after almost 30 minutes on the ultrasound and over an hour and a half on the monitor they told me to go home, take it easy, drink tons of OJ - my iron was low so they put me on a perscription for that, and said count those movements.

Oh yeah, and I had a few contractions while i was there - they were mild but showed up on the monitor, and I'm a finger tip dialated... but again they weren't too worried.

Since we left she's wiggled around a bit, nothing major - but she is moving... I'm supposed to rest a lot the next few days. They said if I fight it hard with OJ and pick up my appetite (something that's dwindled over the last week or so) I'm hungry - but never eat much right now... they want me to eat 6 small meals a day and snack regularly to keep my blood sugar up and try and drink 3-4 glasses of OJ a day - hopefully I can kick this virus and neither her or I get any worse... I go back in on Thursday for my regular visit, if her movment doesn't pick up by tomorrow, I'm supposed to go back in for more tests.

UGHHHHHHH. All I want is a healthy little girl... i hate that she's sick and I can't hold her or take care of her other than drinking OJ til I pee orange. But I'm glad her heart and lungs are doing well... fluid levels were okay so that's good too. All in all they told me to pack my bags now as it's all in the air as to when she might arrive - could be as soon as tomorrow if she slows down again - or I might go another 6 weeks... fun times.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

34 Weeks.

UGH. I almost decided no more pics - but I know I'll want them later... so here's my ginormous belly at almot 34 weeks. I am SOOO ready to not be pregnant anymore!

Friday, January 11, 2008

Slowly Getting There

Well, a wee bit more progress. We picked up the swing and cradle yesterday so now both of those are set up and looking ready for baby! We moved the other sofa in, so now that's finished as well. I think we'll be getting our kitchen cabinets next weekend... that'll be a HUGE project. We're still plugging away at the kids bathroom as Jay's back can only handle so much right now, but all the bead board is up - now we just need the corner trim and crown molding. Toilet should go back in tomorrow, so then that bathroom will be functional though not painted yet as I want to do it all in one coat when the trim/molding is up. But functional works for me.

I admit... I am SO overwhelmed right now. And not really the good kind... things are falling into place, but I just stress all the time about how much we still have to do and how much we want to get done before Maddy arrives, and how much we still need to do to the old house. UGH. I just stress too easily right now. Brooks (the electrician) is coming by tomorrow to rewire the stove (it has 1 aluminum wire and that's not up to code) so then we'll have our stove, and I think he's installing some new can lights over the showers and in the living room if he has time... it'll be pretty - but it's just one more project ya know? Whenever I start thinking about it all I just sort of freeze up. It freaks me out that we have a gazillion projects left to do... I'm tired. Just... tired. I feel huge, look huge and did I mention feel huge?

I worry about Jay constantly. I wonder when his back will act up again, if he'll ever heal completely, when and if we'll ever get back to work regularly... it's all just taking a toll on my emotions. I'm not depressed or anything, just overwhelmed.

And I'm stressing over this lunch/shower thing my mom and sister are planning for Madeline. I feel dumb, it's my second baby and it's another girl, just 2 years after the first. I love the idea of celebating Madeline... but aside from that the whole thing feels pointless and rude... idk. I guess I stress too easily these days.

So, didn't mean to make this a downer post. Just a lot on my mind these days. I can't decide how I want to organize the living room - so for now it's all jumbled up with no organization - and that's driving me mad. We're not using the kitchen right now so we're living out of the fridge with a couple bags of dry goods to get us through so we're not constantly eating out. AHHH. I'm just ready to skip past the next month and have Madeline in my arms with all the projects finished and behind us. Can I just snap my fingers and do that please?

(Still waiting...) lol

Oh well. Reading back I sound like an ungrateful brat... I'm just overwhelmed... grateful, but overwhelmed.

On a positive note, I'll take pics of the swing and cradle next chance I get and post them... they're super cute. :)

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Madeline Update!

So I got back from the doctor today with some interesting news... they've officially moved my due date up to February 24th! And she said chances are I'll go before then. AHHH!

Madeline is measuring at 34 weeks 4 days... so that was pretty exciting! Doctor said as long as everything goes smoothly the next few weeks she'll give me the Friday evening induction on the 22nd I was hoping for! (So Jay won't have to work all weekend and can be with me and the girls.) And I finally had my gluecose test today - just about passed out in the chair as they were taking my blood. lol I seriously got all glassy eyed and the nurse had me lean my head back - I had to lay there for a minute after she was done as everything was spotty and foggy - scared Jay - but I kept saying, "just give me a sec, this happened last time too." LOL

After some apple juice and crackers I was fine though. I swear they have got to come up with a better method of checking for gestational diabetes... making preggo's go 12 hours with no food and then spiking their sugar just to make them sit for an hour just cannot be the best way to test that. I swear that test was made up by a man. ;)

Anyways, just wanted to update! Madeline's officially A LOT closer than I originally thought! LOL I adore my doctor, she's a real sweetie... and I'm officially on weekly visits now. Sucky part about that is that I have to get the cervix check every week from here on out... NO FUN. (Especially since mine is tipped... ooooh the pain... my doctor was actually apologizing as she knew I was in some mega pain from that.)

They did a 2D ultrasound today to check fluid levels and I have one more ultrasound next week (3D!) to do one last check on Madeline. Can't wait to see what she's looking like now!

Anyway, needles and doctors aside... I realized that 5 1/2 weeks is not long at all to get the rest of our house ready for baby girl!!! I've got some work to do the next couple weeks! Yikes! Mom and Beth are planning a baby "sprinkle" for me the first week of February - not a shower as I really don't need a lot, just a fun luncheon to celebrate Madeline. I'm really looking forward to that. :) That's all for this update! Hopefully I can talk the girl into giving me some pictures at next week's 3D ultrasound so I can upload them!!!

Saturday, January 5, 2008

New Location!

Posting for the first time from our new house!!! Boy this has been a crazy week. Jay's continuing to feel a little better - though his back still really hurts at times, his pain meds are doing their job, MRI is in a week. We spent the week prepping the house so we could move in this weekend and spent our first night in the house last night!!! Right now we have no cable so I'm "borrowing" the internet from a neighbor and it's not all that stable, so until Comcast can come set us up in a week or so, I won't be online all that much. Hmmm... so what's new? Well our Home Group leader called us on Thursday and said "Just wanted to let you know, we cancelled group for tomorrow night, instead we're all coming to your house to help you with any projects you have left so be sure to make a list and have everything ready!" I was floored. I kept telling her over and over - y'all don't have to do that! And she replied, "I wasn't asking... I was just letting you know, have the projects ready as WE ARE COMING!" LOL She wasn't about to let us off the hook - and what a HUGE blessing that was! First the husbands showed up, our friend Brooks did all the electrical stuff we had left - outlets, hanging lights, etc - tons of projects that would have taken us days, and they were things Jay shouldn't be doing - he got them all done in half the time it would have taken us! (Brooks is a licensed electrician so he had all the right tools which made it a snap for him to do!) Then Abbies hubby Sean and Mr. Bill came over and moved a ton of furniture in the house for us - so now our sofa's, entertainment center, beds, etc are all in! Then all the wives showed up and they all grabbed paint brushes and helped me give the dining room/hall/foyer a second coat as well as attacked the trim that's been haunting me. My back starts killing me when I get down on the floor to paint the trim - so that was SO nice! The guys then finished most of the shoe molding in the dining room and the girls painted it... I attacked the second fridge with Lysol (ours has a leak in the freezer so we're using the off white one that came with the house until ours get's fixed) and cleaned it all up so we can store milk and basic stuff until our other fridge comes back. The guys also moved the stove and fridge back in the house (we had to take them out when we put in the floors)

All in all we got about 2 weeks worth of projects done in about 3 hours. Not to mention it was really fun having everyone there and chatting with all our friends. It made all the tasks fly by - things that would have taken me days on end to finish up - are all done now!!! I still can't wrap my mind around that.

All the girls loved Madline's room - and it still has a long way to go - but everyone got a kick out of her fully stocked 4 foot closet. LOL We will not be wanting for clothes for this child! Diapers, wipes and bottles maybe. I have a lot of shopping left to do in that dept. But definately not clothes. ;) Lizzy did well staying up and entertaining everyone until almost 10 last night.

She did have a hard time sleeping, the heater shut off for some reason (the whole HVAC unit is being replaced in a few weeks as this one sometimes shuts off randomly) and last night was not a good night for it to shut off - it was 36 outside and only 58 in our house - and I didn't have the space heaters here. So she woke up at midnight, one and three crying and saying she was cold. (She hasn't quite grasped the fact that you need to stay under the covers to stay warm, yet.) So I went back in every time and tucked her in, warmed her up and then sat with her until she fell back asleep - by 3:30 this morning I'd slept less than an hour straight and was EXHAUSTED. I woke up at 5 with pregancy bladder and then was up at 7 for the day. So I'm going to nap here in a little bit. I need some sleep!

It feels weird being in this house, we still have TONS of stuff to move over from the other house - storage things, christmas things, picture frames, mirrors, etc. But all the big heavy things are over so now it's just several car loads waiting for us over the next few days. It's overwhelming while we're at the old house, but feels good to be in a clean new house. Jay and his brother are attacking the beadboard this afternoon in the hall bath. It already looks SO good with the new pine floors and the little bit of beadboard they've done. I can't wait to see the finished product - I need to take some before and after pictures so y'all can see just how ugly those walls were before we finish the beadboard. LOL

Anyway... enjoying our new house - anxiously waiting Madeline's arrival! My gmail ticker finally moved to the second to last baby! Just abou 50 or so days to go until she arrives!!! I'm hoping for fewer but seeing as how Lizzy was late, I'm not counting on it. Since I'm with a doctor this time and not a midwife, they said they'd induce me the week of or before if I want... and I definately want that if they're offering! I'm hoping to schedule it for late evening so I can tuck Lizzy in at my mom's and then go to the hospital around 8'ish, labor all night, deliver some time in the early morning and have all day to enjoy visitors and such - then pass her off to the nursery so I can get one last good nights sleep before she's all mine to take care of! hahaha... wishful thinking? Probably. But I'll see if I can't swing it. It sure would make things a lot easier that way. It's funny when people ask me when i'm due and I can now say, next month! Love that!!! (Of course saying "any day now" will be great too)

Our French doors go in on Monday... hopefully in the next week or so we can start on the new kitchen cabinets. We'll see, gotta wait until Jay goes back to work and we start making money again before we'll be buying all those. Either way - we're here! And I'm loving it! :D

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Stolen Meme 2008.

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before? Refurb'd a house. Got pregnant with a second child.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Become a better wife and mommy... i'd like to think that i made some small progress in that area - but along with losing all my baby weight - I'm adding in the same one again.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Krystyna had Anya, Ashley had Emery, many of my new mom buddies had kiddos this year, including the newest baby Connor was born to Erica and Chris last month!

4. Did anyone close to you die? No. It was a year full of life and living for all.

5. What countries did you visit? None. Unless you count Epcot.

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Nothing really spectacular happened this year on any one day - it was more of a generally good year.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Moving... then repacking and moving again while pregnant(the latter part isn't quite complete yet however)

9. What was your biggest failure? Not being a better housewife... I still suck at that.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Not unless you count morning sickness.

11. What was the best thing you bought? I'm pretty excited about our new house and all the fun things that are going inside!

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Watching my husband grown into the man he was meant to be has been pretty amazing. My how a year can bring about such signifigant change.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Meh. Other than my FIL who is a constant embarassement to our last name - no one really.

14. Where did most of your money go? Hmmm buying a house, fixing up a house, buying a new house, fixing up the new house, getting pregnant, buying a new car, - gosh no wonder our savings isn't looking too hot. LOL

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Madeline!!!! And being all moved into our new house... and Christmas. :D

16. What song will always remind you of 2007? Rodolph the Red Nose Reindeer... Lizzy's favorite song of the moment and she knows all the hand motions - that will stay with me forever!

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder? More confidant - and happier I suppose... though I'm pretty over being pregnant at the moment.

18. Thinner or fatter? Uh.... last year i was the smallest I'd been since high school - this year I'm back up to the biggest I'd ever been - so definately fatter. HUUUUUUUGE in fact. LOL

19. Richer or poorer? Definately poorer - that's what happens when you buy 2 houses in one year - espcially when you have a knack for picking fixer upper's. *bangshead*

20. What do you wish you'd done more of? Organizing - I wouldn't have such a giant project on my hands if I'd have kept everything neater from the begining.

21. What do you wish you'd done less of? Eating out.

22. How will you be spending Christmas? I spent 07 with a head cold - I'm hoping 08 goes better as I'll have two girls to spoil with presents and fun! :D

23. Did you fall in love in 2007? With the heartbeat of my second child... absolutely.... and more and more every day with my husband.

24. Any one night stands? LMAO at K's response... I'll copy hers - I've been meaning to buy new night stands for our room and Lizzy's room - I need to get on that. LOL

25. What was your favorite TV program? Ugly Betty and Grey's Anatomy.

26. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Nope.

27. What was the best book you read? The Christmas Pearl. Good but too short.

28. What was your greatest musical discovery? The radio. Seriously. I'd been slack with the radio the last few years - I've quite enjoyed it this last year. :)

29. What did you want and get? Pregnant! (Although once again... I'm ready to pass the torch on to someone else at this point and just have my baby. LOL)

30. What did you want and not get? What I asked for on Valentine's day and my birthday, and our anniversary last year - maybe for this Valentine's Day... (it's not to his lack of memory or for not trying, it's just kinda expensive so we haven't had the money up to now - I'm keeping my fingers crossed... I'll let y'all know what it is when I get it.) :D

31. What was your favorite film of this year? No clue. We didn't see many at all this year.

32. What did you do on your birthday? I can't remember... nothing too big obviously. LOL

33. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? It was a pretty satisfying year... I can't think of any one thing that would have made it Immeasurably more satisfying. Maybe winning the lottery? LOL Idk....

34. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007? Classic me combined with no more zippers for the last half of the year. (I'm not exactly Mrs. Fashion. I'm definately more in the world of "classic" over modern.)

35. What kept you sane? Knowing Madeline will be here in less than 2 months!!!! :D

36. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Captain Jack is my favorite hottie.

37. What political issue stirred you the most? Hilary Clinton. What a royal PITA.

38. Who did you miss? My grams. I haven't seen her in way too long... I miss her all the time.

39. Who was the best new person you met? I met lots of amazing people this year!

40. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007: God really can do anything. And he can handle all my problems... often times with way better results than I could ever imagine. All I have to do is hand them to Him. Which is hard for me... but when I give it over to Him - things have a way of working themselves out in no time.

Little Better...

Well Jay's making progress. He's semi mobile now, we went in this morning to the doctor, they put him on 3 MORE different meds, so now he's up to 5 pills every 6 hours. Crazy. But they're working, as he's not been in near as much paint. However the downside of him not being in as much pain is that he thinks he can do too much. Currently he's at the new house painting our new doors, this morning he installed a new light in the m/bath and ripped off the countertops so we can replace them this evening when my brother comes over to help carry in the heavy new one. Adding to that list he's given the hall bath 3 coats of polyeurothane today so far (2 more to go before we're finished) and worked on the dining/foyer/kitchen floors as we have to go over the whole thing with mineral oil b/c there's lots of little glue spots left over from where we glued the floors down. Think he's overdoing it a bit? Considering he still can barely walk? *sigh*

I'm just hoping we don't have to go back to the ER any time soon. That was awful watching him go through all that pain. His pain killers are certainly helping in that deptartment...

Anyway. In addition to all that craziness, I semi set up the nursery - or at least the crib and changing table - wait until I post pics of Madelines new closet. LOL It's hilarious... and full. I've got it all in order though so I'll have a good idea of what I still need. Right now I really need socks (I didn't save any of Lizzy's as she wore them all out as she grew), sleepers (i have a couple from Liz but she wore those winter sleep sacks most of the time as it was cold by the time she fit into sleepers well), diapers (I have one tiny pack of newborn diapers - that ought to get me through about 2 days. LOL), wipes (no wipes yet) and I need to make her bumper for the crib, recover the glider and make the curtain over her window - those are late January/early February projects. But it'll get done eventually. Lizzy's room is pretty unfinished at this point... it's painted with new outlets and blinds, the closet shelves are up but no closet doors and nothing on the walls yet - I'm leaving the decorating until after we move in. I wanted to have it done before but I'm just too pooped right now. We're hoping to spend our first night in the new house this Saturday night! Once the hall bath floors dry for 72 hours we can put up the beadboard and it'll be ready to move in!

We decided to replace ALL the cabinets/countertops in the kitchen as they're just too nasty to paint and use in their current condition - so it'll be paper plates and plastic spoons for a month or so until the kitchen is finished - hopefully not too long though. It's an expensive project but will really make the kitchen stand out when it's finished.

ANNNYWAYS! Doctors apt. for me next week, more blood work and a tour of the hospital on the 10th! I can't wait! It's feeling closer and closer as each day goes by! I need to get Lizzy on film saying Madeline. It's so precious... she half butchers the name and it ends up sounding a bit French.... lol it's so sweet. So that's that. Jay has to go back in 10 days for an MRI on his back, the xrays showed 2 slipped disks but the inflamation is going down which was the main cause of his pain. He can visit the chiropractor for a quick fix for the disks - surgery is still in the future but the MRI will tell us how soon we have to go that route... I'm hoping not until at least summertime so Madeline will be sleeping through the night and it won't be such a big deal to take off 3 or 4 weeks of work. I'll update more as we know more.